SO TIRED

Lately I have been so tired I can barely move. Ok not that bad but pretty bad. Having 2 kids has done me in. I don't know how people have tons of kids. My mom had 8 and I cry just thinking about how tired that would make a person. I keep telling myself that it's just sleep and it's not that important but I just love sleep. If you were to ask me what my favorite pass time is my answer would be sleep. I sometimes wake up in the morning planning when I can go to sleep next. This does not really work with a 2 year old and a new borns schedule. Nathan decided to stop taking his 3 hour naps as soon as Ben was born, sad huh. It's not like Ben is even a bad baby. He's not sleeping through the night but sometimes he sleeps for 6-7 hours at a time and then he will go right back to sleep. I have this worrying problem. I wake up about a million times a night to make sure he's breathing and to check on Nathan. Kevin says I make up stuff to worry about. Sometimes I think he's right. This does not help in the sleep department. I lay awake at night thinking about the dumbest things like what I would say if someone this to me or what I should have said in a conversation. I look at the clock every few minutes thinking if I could just fall asleep now I would get this much sleep and then do the same thing 30 minutes later silly me. Sometimes I wish I could just shut my brain off. I have even tried working out the last few days thinking that will make me so tired I will just fall right to sleep no such luck. I have had this love for sleep ever since I can remember. When I was younger I could sleep all day wake up eat and go back to sleep for the night. Boy do I miss those days sometimes. Ok I'll stop. This is probably making whoever reads my blog tired. Happy sleeping!!